Moving before The Move
I've been planning to leave the US in early 2026 for a while now. But I wasn't planning to move within my current city next month... until only a couple days ago.
Even though I have no idea what has caused my ongoing pelvic issues, I realized one culprit may be mold. And I suspect there is a mold issue in my apartment. Could be some woo-woo stuff, but apparently that can trigger hormonal issues. As I haven't had a 100% pain- or discomfort-free since 2025 began, and I don't expect apartment management to do much about it, I'm willing to do anything to help myself. Even if it's only by 1%. I'm considering having surgery done to remove whatever the hell is causing my pelvic hell, and I would hate to return to a living space that promotes its regrowth.
So, I've decided to move out next month just before my lease expires. I've been living in this apartment for nearly five years, which is actually crazy now that I type it out. My second place here. I expected to live here for the rest of my time in this city. But within a matter of days of making this potential connection between pelvic pain and mold, I've become tormented by the idea of leaving this apartment as soon as possible.
My former landlord who is amazing has a vacancy starting next month and is willing to offer a shorter term lease for me at a very decent price. I think I'm going to take it even though I haven't even seen the place yet.
Maybe it's silly to move now when I already plan to leave this state (and the country entirely) early next year, and moving is a pain in the ass regardless of whether it's across the world or around the block, but I think it could still be worth it for various reasons, assuming I can get the apartment:
- It will force me to discard/donate/sell things now so that my next move is a little less overwhelming.
- I will finally have my own washer and dryer. I'm so tired and sort of grossed out by communal laundry at this point. What's worse is that I now have to pay $3.50/load since our leasing company installed new machines a couple years ago. And because they decided not to really maintain them, I've had to clean them myself.
- What's an extra 2-3 months in the US? I can try to savor everything before leaving. I'll have a little bit more time to spend with my best friend here. I'm young, I think. I have the rest of my life still. There's no need to rush to leave 60-90 days sooner.
- It could be a long shot, but maybe there is mold here that is making me sick (at least hormonally). In this case I can start fresh. Health is more important than anything, and I wouldn't wish pelvic issues on anyone.
- I will finally be able to live in the neighborhood I've dreamed of in this city. Mind you, I'm not a huge fan of my current city. But I know I would be much happier if I could live in this one neighborhood. I've realized in the past couple of weeks that I've sacrificed a lot of things like convenience or enjoyment not just to save money but also because I just, like, don't take care of myself in those ways. Or I don't think I deserve them. I think I need to stop delaying my happiness. With this comes the unfortunate downside of living further away from my workplace and grocery stores, but this is a sacrifice I am willing to make (and able to since I got into cycling a year ago).
Going to look at the place on Tuesday.